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Wednesday, September 23, 2026

another bust?

i have to leave for the interview at the store i have an interview with at the mall of america in about an hour. for some reason- it feels like i've already interviewed with this store (but i find myself thinking the SAME thing when interviewing at hotels), especially since they mentioned that i fill out a questionaire before i have the interview.. it feels like they said this before when i interviewed there before and i didn't check my email before i had the interview- so i had to fill the questionaire out there quick before the interview. i filled the questionaire out on my couch last night before the interview this time though. i think i remember the last time i interviewed with them, they decided not to hire me because i didn't have retail experience. this time- i remember to bring up the fact that i've worked CUSTOMER SERVICE jobs in the past. i'm even thinking about writing a reminder on the notebook i always bring to all my interviews. i probably will, in case i get nervous for some reason or forget for some other reason. i don't understand why an employer would even consider interviewing someone if they know they lack a specific skill it takes to work the job. kinda like the salvation army when i interviewed with them last.. i'm pretty sure they asked me right away if i had any retail experience and when i said i didn't really have any retail experience, they told me the job probably wasn't right for me- since all they seen on my resume was tech. jobs. so that may have opened my eyes to spreading my work experience out for my resume- so more employers would actually consider hiring me.
my eyes have been twitching lately.. i asked the supervisor of this ics program if she had any ideas why. she said i might need more potassium. i eat a banana every day with my breakfast but i remember the hospital making me drink tons of this nasty ass chalky shit the last time i was in the hospital for surgery, saying my potassium levels were low. then she said, "or it might be that you aren't getting enough sleep.." heh, that also makes sense too because i must wake up at least 3 times at night while i'm sleeping- WHEN i actually manage to get to sleep- which usually takes at least two hours of laying in bed with my eyes closed. so lack of sleep would also explain why my eyes twitch so much lately. time to go prepare for my next interview.. which could be a complete bust again. then i'm coming back after the interview and the ics worker said she'd bring me to get the CORI form notarized at the post office (i think that's where she said- or the library? UPDATE: turns out she's bringing me to the BANK this afternoon after my interview to get it notarized). HOPEFULLY i ACTUALLY get this notarized because i'd like to get on with my life. this direction seems to be the only possibility at making a life I can ACTUALLY be proud of (NOT which is just convenient and/or beneficial to some people who didn't help me when it was REALLY important all the time because it wasn't CONVENIENT for them and they weren't FORCED to help/care for me by my grandma through BLACKMAIL i even witnessed while hearing her on the phone with my grandma).

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